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I love my work

Posted on 2009.09.21 at 16:41
Current Mood: happyhappy
If you are around me a fair bit in person you probably already know this and I know I've posted similarly before, but it is still a novelty to me.

I love what I do. I love calling people at Microsoft, Sony and Nintendo on a regular basis. Working with one of the giants of my childhood and companies with such legacies is awe-inspiring and yet also brings realism to me. I have learned that behind every great idea/product is a hard working team of humans subject to human follies and failures as well as success and strengths.

I love working in the video game industry. There is a sense of fun, of youth, of activity, of just awesome in this industry. Everyone I've met during network events has that same air. The only worry I have is getting 'old'. I rarely see people over 40 and even more rarely see people over 50. Doesn't mean that won't change over the next 10 years, but still something I think about.

I love working at this company. 2K (a subsidary of Take-Two) makes good games. Take-Two has a good overall corporate structure to it. We had a Town Hall meeting today with the Chairman of our board and while I was initially scared of what that could be it was truly just a meeting to give the state of the state (a mixed bag, but an honest assessment) and to have him available for honest Q&A with our label. It was nice. I may have developed a crush on him. Not in a "I'm going to leave Chesh" way, but in a "Wow, you are smart and honest and charismatic and I'm glad you are leading my company" way. One of the most real 'suits' I've ever met.

I love the people I work with day in a day out. We all have open door/desk policies and that has helped me three times today alone. I've had a few hallway meetings that were productive. I have good email exchanges that have playful aspects while also a serious work undertone. I may be upset on a occasion about a single action by someone, but in general the team is hardworking, hardplaying and fair. There isn't much drama about credit stealing or fighting over assets or pointing fingers for blame.

Coming from a background where I was frustrated at what I had to do daily, where I didn't feel like I gelled with the people around me, where I didn't feel like I could approach upper management, where I didn't feel happy walking into work, this is a revelation.

And that's made me work harder and work smarter and care more about the quality of my work, than all previous dollars or prestige at other companies. I make 'those games for kids' and I love it. I wouldn't have it any other way.


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Statistics, Sources and Damn Lies

Posted on 2009.08.14 at 16:42
So, a coworker (who I actually like) sent out the following link today:

Statistics Show Social Media Is Bigger Than You Think

The point of the article is to use startling facts to get people who aren't involved in the Social Networking space to realize its potential. I suspect it is half 'ra-ra go Social Networking' and half 'if you are a 50+ y/o CEO who doesn't know what Twittering is, this is why you should pay attention.' ETA: This is actually a blog maintained by someone who just released a book on this space

However, because I'm a bad person, I distrust such 'facts' off the bat. While at least article lists sources, many of the sources are summary links of other sources.

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As I said: The basic premise of the article is solid. The generation who is not 20-30 and uses these things as a second breathing, need to understand the importance of them. But I don't think using misleading, incorrect, or otherwise bullshit stats is a good idea. Nor do I think one should masquerade opinions as facts.

But I will note:

I got this article through work Email, from our person who does a lot on our corporate websites and our Twitter.
I twitter'd in anger about just wanting sources.
I IM'd a friend about several salient points.
I wrote this up on a blog (not facebook because I don't want to start a shitstorm with my coworker).
I used Facebook, Wikipedia, Firefox and other online sources when composing this blog.
I may even comment it to the author back, as they asked for feedback, and that is online interaction feeding back on itself.


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TAKEN - Free to a good home - Corsets & Bloomers

Posted on 2009.08.02 at 20:49
Edited with updated status, holy crap you guys are fast

I'm moving and I realize that I have not worn and have also outslimmed the three corsets I own.

1) (TAKEN) Black & Purple leather corset. Modeled front: http://pics.livejournal.com/zhaneel69/pic/00015xtr/g1
Modeled Back: http://pics.livejournal.com/zhaneel69/pic/00016xd6/g1 Off the rack, think as a medium.

It says Medium, is still lightly worn. Suitable for outer or under wear.

(1) Has been claimed by Miss Emelia and then Ms. black sheep as per below.

2) (PROMISED) Black & Purple cloth corset, from Xentricies. Made to my measurements when I was in the 200+ weight range. Suitable for outer or under wear.

Email from Noirem through list, then ragani, then Tshuma. Then Fezzis.

3) (POSSIBLY TKAEN) Magenta corset w/gold trim. Made for my measurements in 2002. (C cup, 190 lbs) For under wear though pretty for private showings.

Possibly for Tshuma if fits, else to ragani or Fezzis.

4) (TAKEN) Bloomers: White long, with beaded fringe. Bought for a day trip to Dickens.

Emailed from the lovely nullax for these, then Noirem.

All are free to whomever wants as I'm not getting use out of them so they should get some love. I'm in Berkeley for now and would prefer a pickup in the evenings or early on Saturday morning. Email me or comment here. (x-posted to Pryanksters list)

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The Weight of Stuff

Posted on 2009.08.02 at 12:02
As part of my moving I'm trying to be very good about culling. This has included one of the hardest tasks for me:

Getting rid of books.

I'm a pack rat in general, but I'm a bibliophile as well. I like the look and feel of books. I like having a bookcase full of books. It is part show-off "Hey world, this is what I've read and what I like." It is also part visible history tracking. Here are the Xanth books from my teen years. Here is the spat of Sailor Moon and other mangas from college. There are my Wicca books and my search for spiritual resolution. Over there are my stash of well worn fantasy paperbooks. Nearby is the transitory fantasy/romance novels. Then there are the really Harlequin and historial romance novels. My writing books I've collected over the years. Etc. The various strata that make up my development of me, my touchstones for how I've learned to see the world.

To a much lesser extent (though it used to be more) books were also my library. I would lend them out, but I haven't done so nearly as much, in no small part because I don't entertain as much as I used to.

I look at my books and I see value for re-reading, I see an investment in entertainment, and I see all the above. But I also see weight of a move. And (with a small nudge from Jason) I'm really evaulating them. Truth time: I rarely re-read books. I have a few, but the vast majoirty of books I read once. As noted above, I don't lend them out and at this point, I don't think of lending them even when possibly appropriate. While I tell myself that Jason may read them at some point, as an added value, our tastes are different and he's already either read or dismissed the chance at reading most of the books. I also have not a small number of books that I'll never read. Ones I picked up on a lark during my years pursuing the writing angle. So I really do have very weighty collection of dust-collectors.

I've managed to fill a large duffle bag twice with books. First cull was easy stuff: TSR/WotC fiction from when I was doing research for the Forgotten Realms and Eberron submissions. Same for some White Wolf Fiction. Books I've owned for more than 7 years and never read. Books that I don't even recognize the author name any more. Some YA that I won't lend out. Doubles of a very select few. Poker books as I'm not dealing and not playing much any more. For my efforts, I was able to sell them for $18. That was way less than I was expecting for 30 odd books, less than 50 cents per. But, as noted these were ones I didn't value and probably wouldn't move quickly so okay, I can deal with supply & demand.

The next set was harder. I pulled a lot of SFBC editions in hardbound, full series by authors whom I like (McCaffery, Lackey, etc.) but not my faves (Freedom series, Storms series, etc.) I pulled the entire Landover, Kingdom for Sale, Sold! in hardbound. I pulled some misc. books I'd missed on my first cull. I pulled the Witchworld books from Norton that I've never read even though I bought them at a used bookstore years ago. etc. This haul was heavier in both weight I had to physically carry and weight in my heart. But I consoled myself with the fact that these books would fetch a greater price. So I trudged them down to Half-Price Books and waited. When my name was called, I went up and was told: $14.

I didn't mean to, but I whined and argued (nicely, in a civil tone) with the lady. Why was the price so low? She said that they have a very hard time reselling the Book Club books. Okay, I don't really understand it but I'll believe her. But I looked at the pile of book club books, and she'd lumped original publishers in there. Like, Del Ray and Tor hardbounds. When I asked her, she said that they were the same size as the book club books (WHAT?) and that the authors in question (notably Terry Brooks and the Landover series) sold better in paperback. I finally left off questioning her and left the books there, but my heart was heavier than when I came in.

The emotional struggle to give up my collection is hard enough. It is worse to go through that emotional journey and then be kicked in the teeth by being told that these things you value and glady paid $6-10 each for are worth roughly a quarter (which they will either give away or resell). The books that I didn't care about (a Joy of Signing and some other stuff) was getting more like $0.75 - $1.00 each (definately to be resold). I know that I'm taking a hit by selling to a third party who then has to resell and make back the money for the person who helped me and the storage anf iling, so I understand I'm going to get 10-20% of their true resale value. But it just seems like so little for treasures that transport you.

This isn't an entry so much looking for help (I could privately sell them if the money mattered, but my time matters more to me). This entry is mostly me, examining my feelings and saying good bye to the books I've already gotten rid of and prepping myself to get rid of more.


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More moving update

Posted on 2009.07.29 at 11:05
Someone wants my old Sofa & Armchair. Yay. So hopefully that means that the Sofa, Armchair, Bed and my print are all spoken for. Which is a great help (thank you to people here looking at those things).

I researched yesterday a few paperwork details, but I still need to setup PG&E and Internet Services.

I did set aside another full bag of books to sell off/get rid of, though I didn't manage to do the Clothing. Tonight!

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Moving update

Posted on 2009.07.28 at 12:49
What I did yesterday: Umm... nothing really. I confirmed that the Freecycle posting went through and that was about it. Whee for long days at work.

Tonight: I will make at least one bag of clothes to give away and one bag of books to give away.

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Moving Stuff

Posted on 2009.07.26 at 20:13
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
(Mostly for my records, akin to publically noting word counts.

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Big Ticket things I still need to do:
List my Queen Sized Bed on Craiglist.
Alternately: Anyone want to make me an offer on a Queen Sized bed: Frame [sled style, slats for the head and footboard, good for tying with cloth if you are into that], mattress is a Sleep Comfort and lightly used; matching box spring
Decide if I'm keeping my desk and switching to that at the new place rather than card table
Further Cull my books, movies, video games, clothing so that I have less to move.

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RPG & FPS Made a Baby

Posted on 2009.07.23 at 17:40
Disclaimer: I work for 2K Games but the below is my personal opinion and not necessarily that of Take-Two.



So glad I can share anything at all about Borderlands with you guys. I'm really looking forward to this title this fall (October 20) and seriously looking for some LAN party goodness (or Xbox 360 Gaming goodness). 4 player Co-Op, unique art style, Character Classes with Skills, and lots of guns. WHEE.


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RIP Charles Brown (editor/founder of Locus)

Posted on 2009.07.13 at 15:49
Current Mood: greiving
http://www.locusmag.com/News/2009/07/charles-n-brown-1937-2009.html (via jaylake)

This, to me, represents the end of Era. I was lucky enough to be employed by Charles at Locus for a summer. It was a glorious summer and one of my touchstones of my life. Charles I remember fondly as a teacher, an editor, a crotchety old man, and a toddler. He actually said to me that he loved getting old because it meant he could throw tantrums again. He was endearing, sweet, and knew how to get the most out of people.

My interview was the result of an email I sent wherein I expressed my love of Science Fiction as well as my desire to learn some of the magazine trade. I was hired directly following my interview, literally starting work within minutes of it ending. Locus was published out of his home in the Oakland hills, which offered a stunning view and an even more stunning library in the baseball. I helped with filing, organizing, general office management, editing and coordinating subscriptions. I also took Charles out to shop for house and office every Friday and learned much from him. He was given to lecture about the state of the industry, the ups and downs of the genre, the rising stars and the past comets. He was friendly to all he met and I think he knew just about everyone in the science fiction world and many of those on the fringe. He reached out to others and touched them, changed them. While I still don't have any fiction published, my writing improved under his tutelage and he was kind enough to have me review a few books while I was working there. I was unable to continue to do so upon my return to college, but his red pen of editing helped me see my verbosity.

I will always have a fond place in my heart for Charles and I smile whenever I see Locus. I'm pleased to know his legacy will live on and I know that the group he has left in charge will carry on the tradition.

I will definitely be picking up a copy of the August issue to honor one of the bright stars of SF.


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Changing scenes

Posted on 2009.06.11 at 13:54
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Today I purged the 60+ userpics so that I could choose the 6 I want. It was hard and I'm really tempted to pay LJ for more, but I know that I just don't post here enough to justify the vanity. I let my paid account lapse. I haven't used most of the features in a while and not to the level that the basic doesn't let me have, except for the userpics.

If you haven't caught on: I don't post here much. I have less and less time for long posts or reading other people's info and responding. It is hard and I miss the friends I've made here, but usually when I'm at work I have a few seconds here and there and when I get home I'm relaxing with video games and my boyfriend and bird than really sitting down at the computer.

Where I've gone: Facebook (I have this up constantly throughout the day), Twitter (minorly, mostly to follow other people), and Instant Messaging. My chat is usually set to available, even though I don't have time for major conversations. I'm on Google, ICQ, and AIM. Feel free to hit me up there to say hi and I'll try to reach out more myself. I've found that most people prefer not to be bothered though, so I tend not to initiate.

I won't not be here, any more than I already haven't. This is more a formal recognition of a reality than anything else. It feels like the end of an era in some ways, but not as heartwrenching as when Gblog left. I know that following isn't an option for many because to some extent I'm just not as present.

As an example, I started this entry before lunch and I finished it at 2:30.


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Posted on 2009.05.19 at 09:51
Wake up this morning a touch late, but not so much so that I'll be late to work.
Do some quick morning emails from home (this has become a habit while I wake up, yay VPN).
Grab my sample ballot and head to the car.
*click click click* Oh that's not good.
*whirr whirr whirrr* Damnit. Car is NOT turning over (could be just battery replace, could be altenator, my headlights weren't on and I don't think the interior lights were...)
Come back inside, email work and then walk to my polling station.
Come back home, start working and trying to figure out how to get the car jumped so that I can go see a mechanic (even if it is just the battery car needs an oil change and so I can just find extra money somewhere right?)

And I say ugh to my day which is only an hour old.

Attention ME!!!!

Go see your dentist

Posted on 2009.05.08 at 14:31
I like to think of myself as a 'good kid.' But for the past 3 years I've been pretty bad. Partially due to not having dental insurance, partially out of loyalty to my childhood dentist, and sheer laziness, it has been 3 years since I've seen a dentist. Finally did that today. My teeth are good, were called 'pretty' by everyone who saw the xrays and I only have a tiny tiny tiny inter-tooth cavity that may go away on its own if I'm good and floss everyday.

However, I had a lot of built up plaque & stuff on my teeth, so they weren't able to finish my cleaning today. I have another in two weeks, and I'm told to floss so that my gums 'tighten' in between now and then. I really hate flossing, but I'm going to try.

I was lucky. I don't floss almost ever and I certainly don't brush twice a day everday (always at least once, but not always twice). It could have been *much* worse. So, even though I know most of my friends have a friend who has posted about dental issues in the last year, this is my contribution to the chorus. If you have dental insurance, go see a dentist every six months for your cleaning & check up. If you don't, consider finding a low-cost provider and saving up for a cleaning every year. Either way, brush your teeth everyday and floss.

Zhaneel (cross posted to facebook)

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On paid accounts and snaplinks

Posted on 2009.05.06 at 12:28
So... my paid account came up yesterday. I didn't renew it. I'm debating the additional user pics as I love those, but I haven't been posting enough or commenting enough.

Of course I come here today and have damn snapshot crap associated with every link. How do I turn off?


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Pimping for a friend

Posted on 2009.03.07 at 18:17
I first started interacting with pecunium when I tried out for the 12 Babes of Xmas on LJ. He randomly liked my journal and my image. He also commented here and I found him intelligent and interesting so I've been reading his journal for the last several years. I have yet to meet him in person, which is amazing because we share a lot of the same social circles, but there you go.

He's asking for help in a contest online. For a while now, he's been sharing his photograph, which I've found stunning and insightful. I'm still trying to work up the money and follow through to buy a very nice print of this gorgeous shot.

He's entering a contest to take a win the funds to do 6-9 month trip and photojournal in England. His LJ description here and a direct link to contest (must register to vote).

I would love to read his view of England and see it through his camera's eye.


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I talk too much

Posted on 2009.02.25 at 15:41
Current Location: work
Current Mood: expansive
A co-worker approached me about having his girlfriend talk to me for a project about School. He brought up WoW & LARPing. Which confused me, but I said I'd be willing to participate.

She sent me questions and I responded. I'm sorta long winded, but I think it summarizes a lot of what I feel about WoW and I thought I'd share. I'm also interested (whether she takes me up on it or no) of what the rest of you feel about the questions/my answers and specifically about the WoW/LARP question.

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ETA: Got clarification on the LARP comment. When her b/f had asked me at work he asked about Cosplay and RP and I talk about the differences between Cosplay/LARP/RP/WoW/etc. and it went over his head. He repeated some of it muddled back at her, that LARPnig & WoW were related. So she added the question. But she is going to leave off in future. Also, if anyone wants to answer the questions (minus LARP) and send me responses I'll forward to her. Or I can put you in touch directly as she'd probably need some IDing info even if published paper can have it be anon.

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Musings on Dollhouse

Posted on 2009.02.24 at 17:19
I've twittered a little about this but, a longer entry is due.

Dollhouse is Joss Whedon's newest series (Buffy, Angel, Firefly, Dr. Horrible, etc.). I am a huge Joss fan. I don't have the the t-shirt but I still adore most of the work he has done. This is not to say he is without flaw, but so far there hasn't been anything he's done that I haven't enjoyed at least in part.

The premise of Dollhouse is that Eliza Dushku plays a young woman called Echo, a member of a group of people known as "Actives" or "Dolls". The Dolls have had their personalities wiped clean so they can be imprinted with any number of new personas, including memory, muscle memory, skills, and language, for different assignments (referred to as engagements). The new persona is not an original creation, however, but an amalgam of different, existing personalities. The end result incorporates some of the flaws, not just the strengths, of the people used as templates. The Actives are then hired out for particular jobs -- crimes, fantasies, and the occasional good deed. On engagements, Actives are monitored internally (and remotely) by Handlers. In between tasks, they are mind-wiped into a child-like state and live in a futuristic dormitory/laboratory, a hidden facility nicknamed "The Dollhouse". The story follows Echo, who begins, in her mind-wiped state, to become self-aware. Stolen from Wikipedia.***SPOILERS IN THE WIKIPEDIA ENTRY, ESPECIALLY IN TERMS OF CASTING***

Eliza is one of my fave actresses from Buffy (see icon) and I'm pleased to see her starring in this show. She does a good job, but Joss is writing to her strengths: Sassy, sexy, powerful with a hint of soft underbelly. However, I'm still having issues with whether or not she has the range to truly showcase a wider variety of Dolls. Also on the show is Amy Acker (Fred, Angel), as a soft-spoken science doctor with a traumatic past. Again, I like Amy but that seems to be recasting Fred only without the growth of the last season. The other cast members are interesting and I don't know them as well, but I look forward to getting to know them.

I like the show. Both the pilot and the 2nd episode have interesting parts. There are hints at larger subplots and at dark seedy secrets and the surface waiting to be scratched. I'm curious to see how the usual group dynamic Joss builds could possibly work in the face of Echo's consistent wiping, even though it is clear early on that her name is more than just a phonetic of Doll E. However, I'm having some minor issues.

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Posted on 2009.02.23 at 12:36
Been a while since I've done a silly meme.

- Describe me in one word... just one single word. Positive or negative.

- Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.

- Then copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word. - Optional continual if you want. You don't have to continue to write a word, you don't have to write a word to post in your journal. Free will for the win.

Edited to add: I'm amazed and humbled by the words you all have used to describe me. Thank you.

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3 Things

Posted on 2009.02.18 at 15:36
Three good things, randomly brought to you by my brain.

1) Decaf Lemon Tea. I'm enjoying having this in my afternoons. In part because I'm trying to have less caffine overall, but not exceptional hardcore about it. And in part because it calms me during my afternoon rush.

2) Warm boy snuggles. I love these as I go to sleep and when I wake up in the morning. I love that we both try to sneak in a little extra snuggles in the morning.

3) Kick ass cajun quiche. I enjoyed it muchly, though quiche is not Chesh's fave so I will make rarely and for me.

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Harlequin Turns 60

Posted on 2009.01.29 at 10:52
To Celebrating 60 years of publishing Harlequin is offering free downloads of 16 Books: One or two from almost all of their lines. 4 formats for download: PDF, eReader, ePub or MSReader.

I can't find an easy to copy/paste list of the books, but I did note a Blaze and a Nocture, which are my favorite lines. But there is something for everyone who likes kissing books.


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3 Things

Posted on 2009.01.23 at 18:45
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
1) I am already tired of Baseball. What, the season hasn't started yet, you say? Lies I tell you. Foul dirty lies.

2) I'm enjoying WoW. I'm being able to put it down when I need to, and I'm getting in some raising which is good.

3) I still adore Syn. He's being a co-dependant brat right now and squawking whenever I leave the room if I'm home, so I need to work on that. But my baby Parrot boy is my pride and joy.


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Attn: PC Gamers

Posted on 2008.12.27 at 14:29
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Steam is having a massive holiday sale. Almost everything they have: 10-75% off.

Check out these deals:
BioShock: $4.99 (Dude, if you don't own this already, it is five fucking dollars and I'm not just saying that cuz it earns my company money).
p0rtal: $4.99 (Easily one of the most creative games I've played in a long time).
FallOut 3: $39.99 GAME OF THE YEAR 2008 Right here, price dropped already for you lazy butts.
Dawn of War: Everything: $29.99 Never look for a CD key or a crack at a LAN Party again.
Left 4 Dead: $37.49 Newest Valve game, hawt Zombie action.
World of Goo: $14.99 Cute physic puzzle game.

AND MORE (including Peggle).


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Posted on 2008.12.03 at 19:07
I don't usually link these but Dude. 90% certain this a baby senegal.

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For Meliny - Vertigo Tarot

Posted on 2008.12.03 at 16:08
New Reprint Tarot Deck from DC Comics, based on the Vertigo label.

clipped from www.elsewhere.org

The Vertigo Tarot

Illustration by Dave McKean
Text by Rachel Pollack
Introduction by Neil Gaiman


ETA: Reprint, not new, move along nothing to see...

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Political Quickie

Posted on 2008.11.19 at 12:21
Current Mood: sillysilly
7-11 Ran their every cup counts promo this year. If I stopped in during the election, I voted the same as I did in the polling station. However, the election is over now.

BUT the 7-11 in Berkeley still has out cups... only for McCain. I'm guessing they didn't sell through that stock and aren't counting votes any longer, but it amused me because I thought long and hard about getting a 16 oz or a 28 oz instead of the 20 oz so that I didn't accidentally late vote for McCain.


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Eye of the Tiger

Posted on 2008.10.28 at 14:10
Current Mood: sillysilly
I'm getting pumped up.

And Dean Winchester is helping.

Fun watch, even if you aren't a fan of the series. The weird scratching is in character for that episode.


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